Friday, April 24, 2009
{ 5:52 AM }
I was wondering,every single day, why this things always come to me. Have i been a bad friend? After all i put myself into it, i make the circle of friends grow, at the end of it, i got step and thrown. Far away. Where is my wrong? Tell me. Don't say the work bestfriend for the sake of saying it or for the sake of the years of friendship we built. I've tried my very best to be nice to everyone one. But end of it, i'll drop. Each time i were to bring this topic up, i'll get response like "Mane ade, kau ni sensitive sangat lah" Before you people say this, have you people ever think how hard i try to put things in hand and in the end, i got shits back. I felt hurt. Its too painful till each time i think about it, my tears will flow down my cheek. Tell me, Show me and do whatever ya'll can as long as i know why all this things happen. I miss those times when all of us were together, laughing ourselves out like no body business and share our troubles together. Now, i got no one to talk to. I don't know who i could share my problems with. I got not even a person i could trust again to share everything together. Maybe because i'm fat & ugly, these are the reasons people stay away. Mum always remind me, not to be very nice to people as people will always step on my head again and again. But, i told myself, its ok. I know that they are my true friends. I was wrong. Totally wrong about all this. I really need a friend to talk to. I'm having a big problem now and i really don't know who i can express it to. The pain in me now is really killing me. At times, i just think that if i'm not gonna be around in this world anymore, everyone will be smiling. And that is when the sorrow's end. To the one's who is reading this, i'm very sorry if you people think that i got this wrong, its just the feeling i have in me and how sad i am now, no one knows except me, myself and i. Thanks for everything.
Labels: fReNs
